Take the time To just admit you’re failing But then remind yourself To continue procrastinating So I’ll conjure my regrets Begging optimism not to leave So I can tell myself I’ll make it Just so I can let myself back down again So does your happiness rely on someone else’s misery? And does your hopelessness persist? Block out the doubt As I tell myself “It’s only one day away” False hope surrounds As I tell myself “I guess you’ll just have to wait” Take the time To notice how I’m feeling Oblivious and blind Can you just hear me out? I said I tried Tried to tell you what you meant to me, but false hope has got the best of me And I’ve reached the breaking point, nothing left to do but to sigh and leave But you should know I’m leaving emptily, cos if I don’t you’ll be the death of me Now I return to writing elegies, for my dreams and my dying destiny So does your loneliness rely on all the things that you regret? And has your dying love finally met death? Block out the doubt As I tell myself “It’s only one day away” False hope surrounds As I tell myself “I guess you’ll just have to wait” So now my future rests, on the ice I’ve spent so many years breaking And I am lost in my betrayal to myself So now my future rests on the broken shoulders that optimism brings And I am lost in my betrayal, to myself Block out the doubt As I tell myself “It’s only one day away” The hope’s ripped me apart Now I’ll share my scars Time has come, I‘m not waiting Procrastination’s taking over me, and I’ve let this hope consume me And I’ve learnt enough to know, that these melodies don’t play themselves So I’m picking up the pen at last, I’m building up the strength to stand Using words as a weapon against the armies of doubt that can’t be taken out by hand Cos it’s all in the head and mind, I think I better head out and tell those armies to mind Their own business, listen, you really do exist, but your time isn’t infinite so make the most of it You almost made me accept the negative, I thought I made it clear that my goal’s imperative I’m sensitive but I’m sensing it, the compass in my head is set to this, oh I know you told me never to sing again, and you warned me that I just accept That I can’t do everything, I guess a dream’s a dream and it’ll never be more that But I’m still trying with all the strength I have, you can bet it’s hard but you can bet that I’ll be back Now I hope you can finally understand why this dream, was so important to catch

I’m barely floating on an ocean full of hopeless Thoughts foreboding, focus, y’know I hope you don’t notice That growing in my conscience is a phobia showing I’m not evolving enough if I’m totally honest I take notes I’m lacking in common knowledge I hope to hold my own now I’m no longer in college I hope to hone my skills but I’m still overly modest Cos honestly your honesty has drained my positivity I’m criticized for being who I know I’ve always been I wanna escape this cage but no one wants to trust me with the key Never moving forward so it seems I’m trapped in purgatory And not allowed to fail so I can’t even be subsidiary I’m still not ready what the hell has life been teaching me? When I’m so far from steady will your guidance still be reaching me? A little light headed as I walk upon these feet again Cos once this crutch is gone I will be left to learn to breath again Heaven far above, am I hopeless, am I hopeless? Oh won’t you notice, notice, notice? Have some faith in me, there is hope here, there is hope here If you just let me breath So here we are, water’s rising My soul is drifting, away I can see my home, drifting far away from here, yeah And I can feel my soul, caving further into me, yeah Another day, another challenge I think you’ll find that we are not so different Seeking help is not in fashion Easier to drown here by myself And I, can feel myself drifting far away from here I am alluvium, deposited and dispositioned anywhere Could drift to an abyss or pure bliss and I still won’t find belonging there Can never bring myself to speak, too scared of what you think, thanks to what you share I wish I shared more, I wish I cared more about the silent life ahead of me We’ll never know unless you let me go, this burden’s mine to face alone The water may be rising, but you can bet I’ll try my best to rise with it, here it comes Heaven far above, am I hopeless, am I hopeless? Oh won’t you notice, notice, notice? And so my friends, there’s still hope for me I haven’t sank yet, I can breathe Heaven far above, am I hopeless, am I hopeless? Oh won’t you notice, notice, notice? Have some faith in me, there is hope here, there is hope here Oh, I can show this, prove it, I’m here Heaven far above, am I hopeless, am I hopeless? Forever drifting this ocean, ocean, ocean? Have some faith in me, there is hope here, and there is hope here If I can learn to, breathe

I’m coming back to test myself again I’m staying trapped to take my fear’s revenge Crumbling time and time again, I’m still lacking in my defence Was it overthinking or the numbers that put this migraine inside my head? After all the storms at sea before, I’ve been washed ashore on this cay retreat Now my knees are weak but I feel at peace, I think a mindless life here is what I need I never wanna know the way I die I never wanna have to wonder why It’s all fine to me, just take it easy I never wanna have to sleep at night Never wanna make the same mistake twice So much time to waste, for me to find my place, yeah There’s no need to worry, there’s more to the story And I don’t wanna know when my time is coming From oceans to mountains, from deserts to clouds I Will be alright, just taking life as it comes Y'know, maybe just for once I’ll allow the tide, to take me where it wants, see how the ride is And I won’t fight it, staying undivided, making space in my head to keep an open mind and Many ask when I’ll activate my brain, but I threw consequence away yesterday Just to make that space, away the hourglass pours but it’s not the sand I rest on so the rest is ignored I never wanna know the way I die I Never wanna know if I will climb The stairway beyond, or fall to the cliffs below I never wanna have to think again Never wanna know if I will spend The rest of my days, in discontent There’s no need to worry, there’s more to the story And I don’t wanna know when my time is coming From oceans to mountains, from deserts to clouds I Will be alright, now that my mind is empty There’s no need to think now, I don’t need to know how I’ll keep it up, in this soulless husk From oceans to mountains, abysses to cliffs I will be alright, just taking life as it comes Yeah I’ll be alright… I’ll be just fine… right? Oh God

Been so awake for all these years I couldn’t sleep It’s like we never had that and now we never will have Been so afraid and full of fear I couldn’t think It’s like I never mattered, we never happened We’ve lost the evidence Now when I see the past it’s stone cold With everything I’ve done And everything I’ve lost There’s still something missing Phantasmic times, figmental life But dreams inspires me On life’s boulevard, in my sorry heart Life will inspire me, again When everyone I’ve loved And everything I’ve touched Turns to stone We’ll erode away But you’ll inspire me Been so awake for all these, years I couldn’t sleep It’s like we never had that and now we never will have Been so afraid and full of fear, I couldn’t think It’s like I never mattered, I never happened We petrify, our past has died A dream or memory? Yes I’m terrified Now I can’t keep, holding on to bliss I’ll erode away, but pain inspires me Goodbye... just smile Been so awake for all these, years I couldn’t sleep It’s like we never had that, and now we never will have Been so afraid and full of fear, I couldn’t think It’s like we never happened, I never mattered Did we ever happen? Did we ever matter? Did we ever have that? I know we had that

I started here, with a mind so clear Refreshed and sincere, but I haven’t changed a thing I’m still breaking down, fighting myself Forcing how I feel, but I’ll never show my pain If you just let me know, I’ll pack my bags and go It was never your fault, I’m only here to fill that void in me And nothing hurts like this, this hopeless optimist It’s nothing new; I’m still the hopeless boy I was before I am waiting to see, if I will find it here Someone made for me, but is there such a thing? And even if there is, would you know that I exist? Would we ever speak? Or is it just not meant to be? If I just let you know, would you back your bags and go? It’s never your fault, I’m only here to fill that void in me And nothing hurts like this, this hopeless optimist It’s nothing new; I’m still the hopeless boy I was before I’ve tried to kid myself, trick myself that this is what I want in life But all it’s done is give me hell, meaning well but now I just despise myself Am I wanting too much? Just the best for both of us but Cocooned in bedsheets, we will muster up the will to love once more Nothing hurts like this, nothing hurts like this Nothing hurts like this; do you know that I exist? Do you know that I exist? Will you know that I exist? But maybe when you find me, I will be reborn If you just let me know, I’ll pack my bags and go It was never your fault, I’m only here to fill that void in me And nothing hurts like this, this hopeless optimist It’s nothing new; I’m still the hopeless boy I was before And sometimes what you want, just doesn’t want you back It’s no one’s fault it’s just the way it has to go oh So here we go again, the mountain we ascend Cocooned in bedsheets, waiting for our wings to grow again Someday, I will be reborn